Fears

[IntenseWhisper]

Ah yeah, that whole... jumping thing and not having much fear about it... last year, I fell (suicide attempt) 61 ft off of a parking garage and I'm still here and I'm not paralyzed (broke spine, arm, pelvis, lots of metal in me but I walk around just fine).

I don't really remember that whole process, I was in a *state* so to speak- but I do remember having lots of fear, so much fear.

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The first thing that comes to mind is the Aries fire initiative stellium, 8th, death, and overcoming it like a transformation within yourself. I remember you saying your moon was there too? I hope you are a new you, having a stellium in the 8th. My 8th stellium Virgo/ Libra & as an astrologer it did make me stress on it a bit, I needed someone elses perspective on it, there were too many thing that could happen. I also throughout life tended to worry over someone else-my dads life (my saturn 20 gemini is conj his sun) he is 83 now I am happy you are here & appreciate you InWh

 

[nejispirit]

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The first thing that comes to mind is the Aries fire initiative stellium, 8th, death, and overcoming it like a transformation within yourself. I remember you saying your moon was there too? I hope you are a new you, having a stellium in the 8th. My 8th stellium Virgo/ Libra & as an astrologer it did make me stress on it a bit, I needed someone elses perspective on it, there were too many thing that could happen. I also throughout life tended to worry over someone else-my dads life (my saturn 20 gemini is conj his sun) he is 83 now I am happy you are here & appreciate you InWh

Yeah, it is rather hard to believe eh? At times I question it myself, I was at the top of the garage building and then in a hospital bed- did that really happen? I do not rememeber the falling part so... but anyway:

I have my sun, venus, mercury and moon in Aries there- as well as my Lilith and Eros; I really do feel reborn and nothing like I did before I fell- medication for anxiety (the *right* kind also) helps that feeling, but I believe I was given a second chance at life and that I'm supposed to be here- for what, I'm not sure yet.

Thank you though :39:, I am very glad to be here as well.

 

[IntenseWhisper]

When you go through fear you become fearless.


Sounds ridiculous, but I find some innate truth in that.

Absolutely!!!!:60: