Your chart and Lilith
23 said:
I'll throw my chart out. Tell me what you think of me.
Dear 23,
You have taught me something about astrology I had not understood.
Lilith is this little-understood asteroid whose significance I am only beginning to understand. There is a lot of mythology with these asteroids -- and with the planets too, but I have a sufficiently firm grasp of the planets that I don't get lost in the ooga-booga discussions of old Greeks that I'm not "getting" what's really happening on a chart when discussion turns to mythology and the planets. But when discussions about asteroids turns to mythology, my eyes sometimes glaze over. :?
Lilith is this character who could not submit -- she could not lie down and have sex with her suitor. There is some dispute about whether this makes her a feminist or if this makes her somehow neurotic. As a woman who enjoys lying down on her back at least some of the time and submitting to the strength and power of someone stronger than myself, I fully understand why it was unfortunate for Lilith that she couldn't just let herself be man-handled this way. Sex is all about letting yourself be gotten, at least some of the time.
Lilith conjuncts your Ascendant, from the back side (12th house).
And so, I'm reading these postings of yours and other people's, and I'm thinking to myself, "Here's a person who would go to the doctor's office and tell the doc, 'Wait a minute, let me take a look and tell you how I'm doing, and then you can diagnose me!'"
You refuse to submit. This has become hysterical
! :roll: You want people to tell you about your chart, but you're so busy being in charge, you can't let others do their business. Why are you consulting other people if you don't want to let them have the information they need in order to give you the feedback you're asking for? You want them to beg you for it? No one is getting paid here, and this is the kind of service for which you could pay $100+.
So, from all this, I realize that is the over-riding issue with your chart. :| :!: You have this Aries Ascendant, but instead of just plunging in and doing whatever it is, if it involves any kind of cooperation, you've got this Lilith problem -- a monkey on your back -- making you unwilling to submit to anyone else's wisdom.
You have taught me a great deal. I hope it was good for you. It was good for me. 8) I'm sorry if this sounds harsh -- it's just that this has been rather exasperating.
-- CJ