Saturn Opposition to my moon transit - feeling very low

[Pippa2675]

Im wondering if anyone can help me, I feel a lost soul at the moment , I dont think I have ever felt this way since the last one which may have been around 2006/2007 time.

I am pisces and I know Saturn is hitting us hard at the moment, I am born 26th feb 1975 at 05:38am and I was seeing a guy 28th April 1975 since last May, we were up and down and all over the place since Dec to which we broke up, It was a very strong intense and emotional physical chemistry but his lifestyle was very different from mine, I have family/friends etc he has a son but is now building his life back up for himself....I felt I couldnt cope with his divorce, endings around money, debt, instead of seeing him for a good person he was....as he was..... he has a new job now, really happy and just found out he has met someone new and in a new partnership to which it has broken me. Literally. When we broke up new years eve, I needed time on my own to think what do I want, I was just focusing on my house, job/friends/health and emotional/mental health and then I saw him with his son, didnt know what I felt but also I cant seem to understand my own emotions, but afterwards a heavy weight hit me and then a gut insinct was strong, to which he has met someone new for drinks and he is happy I could sense it, however I am still feeling this whole hardship.

I have my own house, job/company/lovely family/friends/ no children and since I have found this out with him,its hit me in reality that perhaps i should have kept him as he was a good man he really was and he was well loved and very popular. I was just really serious/heavy and kind of up and down with my own emotions which I cant seem to work on and never have understood them since childhood as my parents are not emotional people etc... I do feel more grounded now but he has moved on, which I guess is maybe Saturn teaching me a lesson perhaps I dont know. He said to keep in touch, I said well I will wait to hear from him first of all thats the sign he wants to hear from me still and he said if I return the message im the same. I guess it is what it is..

Whatever it is, I would love some help as I have never felt so erm....low, lost and confused and wondering when it will end? I was told I would meet someone this weekend which I have a date on Sunday as it goes, but this full moon in my opposite sign, I have virgo moon I am wondering was connected to my ending with my ex too perhaps?

Not too sure what to do with myself apart from walk my dog and not feel sorry for myself as my life is good!! its just this emotion I cant seem to deal with....or understand, its making me change but think in a good way around what I have neglected ie relationships and focused more on my job....and my own self, which is feeling selfish over here hmmm

Thank you so much for reading, hope someone can help/shed some light xx

 

[IleneK]

I truly think the worst of transiting Saturn triggering your Sun Moon opposition at 7PI-9VI is over very soon, at the end of this month. So it has not just been your Moon affected by Saturn, but the whole Sun Moon constellation in your chart, which is a key chart signature.

My husband's Sun is at about 5PI and conjunct my Desc. So when something happens with his Sun, it happens with our relationship [for me]. We have been together a long time and I have grounding and commitment to stay and to support, really no matter how hard or heartbreaking things are, because of our deep affection for one another.
He, too, has Sun Moon opposition like you. I cannot say for sure what was going on, but will say that it was BY FAR the toughest transit that we have been through, each in our own different way. And that things began to lift and transform very much around the perfection of the last aspect from Saturn.
So I offer that to you, that things may really shift, lighten up in the coming days and weeks, since Saturn separates from its aspect to your Moon in the first week of March.
Be open to seeing the light; it is likely not too far away.
I am truly wishing you well.

 

[Pippa2675]

Hi, thank you so so much for this it is so lovely to hear that not only you understand what this is but also went through it with your husband, unfortunately for me i had to break from my partner as i didnt feel he was strong enough for me or stable or secure both emotionally at times and financially as a lot of debt from his past and i felt this was too much of a burden for me in a lot of ways which was a real shame as there was a lot of love I had for him though. i do feel lighter today and he has messaged me but I have said to him I am letting him go to love someone else and be loved in the way he deserves now, which for me makes me feel more in power of myself and emotions today, but still feel kind of icky naturally!! Its amazing you have this with your husband something I have always wanted and admired and you sound an amazing wife to him and supportive too. I really needed to read this, so again Im incredibly grateful. Blessings

 

[Frisiangal]

Hi,
I study the position and effects of a calculated astrological point known as MEAN Black Moon Lilith. A point equidistant from Earth and the Moon's apogee, its furthest position from Earth, it can denote much about deep inner feelings ( from childhood?) that form their own images within that have difficulty finding expression in the outer world. This point is on 2+degrees Pisces in the 3rd house (relating, communication) in the natal chart. It forms a link to natal Sun (Self, father figure), and Uranus (independence) in the 11th house of platonic friendships.
Sun and Moon form an opposition in the chart. This often implies a difficult relationship between the biological parents. With MEAN Black Moon Lilith, the biological father can have no part in the raising (3rd house) of the child.

Pisces lives with the inner experience its sensitivity to outer situations provide. Do the words 'abandonment', 'neglect' 'unseen', 'rejection', resonate with you? Could they effect the way you look upon relationships? Not too close 'for fear of' what could occur, yet with a need to feel wanted, rather than its opposite?

Prior to New Year's Eve, tr. Saturn, the planet associated with 'physical manifestation in life' conjoined MEAN Black Moon Lilith and its trine aspect to Uranus. Did your friend's attitude towards you raise those feelings you may have felt to have been part of your life for so long? Uranus made the emotional choice to end a relationship that was not more significant than 'emotional friendly' because your priorities were so different?

I don't know if there is a psychological term for it, but many who go through endings in relationships, even of their own choice, have difficulty when the other (quickly) finds someone else. Each one feels a form of rejection by the other. The rejector doesn't like the idea that they weren't as important as they imagined themselves to be; the rejected wants to prove to the other, as well as to themselves, that they are desireable.. Each has a bruised ego for a while, until Saturn's endings is seen for what it is .... the learning experience within every situation.

Hopefully, you are prepared to move on and not let the recent situation hold you back from further encounters.

 

[Pippa2675]

Hi there, thank you so much @Frisiangal wow thats really explained a lot and yes yes and yes related to my dad, I struggle intensely over here with being vulnerable I was never this way or let go with the ex then he would come back I would accept him and i was always angry, upset and hated his lifestyle with his son,debt, divorce, house not sold etc so now that I find out or he tells me another person is on the scene yes I feel rejected wow, gosh its so true lol.
Im hoping that I can find someone new soon, not sure when this happens per say but I am regaining my sense of emotional self and being more true to who I am without desperately needing to find someone just dating and seeing what happens! But yes the ego has taken a battering, which I am working on, its a full moon in my virgo moon so thats really intense for me too!!
He comes over here a lot with his son, so hoping I am not really seeing him anymore but it is what it is and shall let that go, Im looking forward to what this year holds, but this is so good and makes 100% sense on a deeper level for sure.

 

[Pippa2675]

and yes @Frisiangal our lifestyles were very different that was what I said when I ended it funnily enough spot on!