Why does astrology feel like a waste of time?

[FVRKAN]

This is a very important question for me. That's why I put it into this section of the forum. For those who wants to answer by looking at my birth chart to figure out why I feel like this, here's my birth chart.

The thing I wanna focus and improve in life is music. And to be able to do that I need to work hard. But I have also other interests in different fields such as audio engineering, video graphic designs, photoshop and I wanna even sail to new areas like coding, game developing, utilizing AIs professionally etc. But to be able to have a sufficient knowledge about all these things, I need time. And my time on this earth is limited. And 24 hours is not enough for me to chase all of these things, especially considering I also fight with myself often because I have an inclination to be self-indulgent, self-sabotaging and simply lazy.

The initial attraction of astrology for me starts with the mystery of unanswered questions about life and universe. Then I feel like astrology is superior than any other thing. Because it is understanding the dynamics of life. And it explains "why"s to a deeper level than it looks on the surface. Of course it still doesn't give the answers of where we are coming from and where are we going to but at least, it is possible to reason why some actions, tendencies and many more concepts in life take place. But then I realize... It takes too much time of mine and it's so endless that... To be able to calculate all the functions, and all the factors, is not possible for the mathematics behind everything is tremendously big in a level that we cannot fully comprehend as a human. But yes, at least, we can have ideas, and we can see a navigation of the destiny. And I enjoy figuring out mysteries and pursue more.

But then, I realize, I wanna utilize astrology not only for solving the mysteries but also for my selfish goals. I wanna save myself from my unwanted restrictions, I wanna figure out how to behave according to the existing situations, and I wanna figure out where to relocate based on astrology, so that I can move forward in life easier than I would do without knowing astrology.

But isn't all of these things already included in destiny? We're still in the game. We're trying to solve the game while we're the players and we're supposed to play this game. And then I'm being hard on myself like, "you know what, instead of researching how you should behave and where you should relocate, if you work hard with what you have instead of spending your time for trying to solve the mysteries, you'd be already started to be successful."

I feel like this is a contradiction between my Venus in 10th house and my Mercury and Mars in 12th. I need to improve myself in music more and more, I need to finish audio engineering lessons, I need to release new music frequently etc but when I chase something in astrology, I can't stop until I reach something satisfying for that moment. But what's gonna happen even if I solve enough mystery? Will it not be included in destiny already? Moreover, while researching relocation options, aren't these moments also the result of destiny? Why I wasn't searching few years ago? Why I wasn't giving a single f*ck about astrology before I was 25 years old? These were included too. So my researching on these right now is included too.

While my peers give concerts, advance in musical careers, who especially have mars, sun, jupiter in their 10th house... I feel like I'm imprisoned to astrology with my Mercury and Mars's being in 12th house in Scorpio and with my Scorpio rising which makes me fond of occult and unknowns. And I feel like this is another illusion. And I feel sorry for myself about not having a better destiny in that case. Again as my Saturn square Pluto suggests "Your desires may be a bit unrealistic in light of the resources you have to satisfy them." - and I was always thinking in material ways as the resources I lack are actually having enough money, enough environment to advance in music career but the actual resource I lack seems to have a proper destiny. A proper birth chart. I don't know about the future, maybe I'm being too harsh on myself, maybe all of these obstacles will make me someone stronger but I don't want to be? I would want to take stage, DJing, partying, making money through my music, having elite girlfriends that I share my life and bed, enjoy the life with my music career, instead of being aware of too much things and getting overwhelmed by it.

And the time that I spent/that I will spend on astrology will never come back. At what cost I'm doing this? To just know how I would be happy, to just know where I would be happy... What should have been was to be born in unproblematic family in unproblematic country without traumas and disorders and with enough positive aspects, like Martin Garrix for example, who was born in Netherlands, who were sent to a music production school when he was a teenager and who made the song "Animals" when he was 17 years old and who exceeded +1 billion views with that on YouTube and who created an awesome career from the beginning and his place is so good that, once in two years, he becomes number 1 of DJ mag top 100 list. This is just an example. So these planets we inspect are being abundantly generous to some but being so harsh to some.

Today I was on a zoom meeting with someone, he and I worked together for a year, he's a rich man and he had hired me to produce his tracks that he's gonna sing over. And we had a session about astrology. I read his chart, and I read mine... He has luck. Too many aspects that shows he'll never lack resources in life, that he'll be wealthy, that he'll be leader in anything he does etc. The downside of his chart seemed so small compared to mine. I was given getting stabbed in a street fight, getting imprisoned injustly, he was given turning his ideas immediately to cash, a strength that he'd feel self-reliant all the time. And the examples may be increased.

So I'm like, why to learn astrology? To see in the end that I'm a piece of sh*t and unsaveable? What will change my squares? What will change my pessimistic look to the world while I have this much squares to make me think so?

I'm still pathetically hopeful and trying to find the answers about myself and about the place where I should live, while others already were born with having these and already hitting the music charts with the music they make instead of birth charts as I do.

 

[katydid]

I think this overall discussion goes back to the question you posed in your Free Will thread----Why do some people have rough incarnations while others have cushy, easy incarnations?

If we think it is random luck then we can feel envious or bitter about our friends talents and wealth and our own negative situations.

However, what if we realise that we all will have incarnations full of wealth and talent and happiness--just as we all will have our less wealthy, less lucky circumstances?

Every soul has a journey which includes positive and negative---poverty and wealth, happiness and sorrow. Success and Failure.

YOUR incarnation this time is what it is. You had rough situations, turmoil with government, false imprisonment but now you are working to catch up, feeling pressure to succeed. It is hard and kind of pointless to compare it to a 17 yr old WunderKind that had incredible luck and resources.

His life might seem great and maybe it is---but his next one will be different. Just as yours will be.

It is a waste of time and energy to compare and contrast your life circumstances with someone else's and feel negatively about it. I guess that is why it can be important to understand that at the launching point, we agreed to this particular incarnation. There is a karmic reason behind each one.

Maybe in an earlier incarnation you were a prison guard or a judge that sentenced people. So in this life you experienced th opposite---being unfairly imprisoned. If you can accept there was a larger, essential karmic reason behind it, it might be easier to accept ?

 

[FVRKAN]

I think you’re just making some ways to make yourself believe into this so that you can hold on a thought that would make you feel immortal, and probably you accepted this philosophy later in your life as you get closer to the death. Your beautiful flesh will be eaten by worms, or decay by itself or will be ashes. And you don’t wanna accept this. You wanna claim more. Because it doesn’t feel fair. Once you were attracting plenty amount of men. You’re losing your power day by day. Your skin doesn’t feel yours. You still expect to see that young face you used to see when you look at the mirror but something is wrong. Your time is coming to an end. You’re dying. You don’t wanna just disappear. You’d even prefer to be in hell rather than being something non-existing. You can understand that there’s no such a thing by just looking at the fact in this life that is “destroying always easier than making”. That’s the only thing that the world loses the concept of “duality of life”, where it loses its 50/50 balance. You don’t have any idea how much I feel sorry for you just because you said you’re 73. And I’m also very close to that age as someone 30. I’m aware of that. I bet you’re still somewhat beautiful in some ways and even might be considered as attractive even at that age especially compared to your peers. Such a vivid soul you have. Yeah maybe I’m gonna die before you, nobody knows, but I don’t believe the things you talk about. You’re not the only one who saw that near death experience light or who experienced some supernatural stuff. But this doesn’t prove anything. Maybe you’re right, maybe wrong. I don’t care about the people who could possibly lived my previous life or will live my next life. I wanna reach that next life here, with this char, with Furkan. If I ever lose my total hope, I’ll exit this server. Right now I’m just watching a boring movie just because I wonder if something would happen.

Sorry if ever hurt your feelings. Know that I didn’t mean it. You’re precious.

 

[FraterAC]

Astrology may be a waste of time. Or it may be a waste of time for you.
If the various metaphysical, philosophical, Theosophical, etc explanations do not make sense or resonate with you, OK. Ultimately they are more like rationalizations than explanations in any event, and although there may be some very advanced thinking and realizations behind them, they are still limited by the state of the person expressing them (with all due respect to those who have commented).
Unfortunately, closing one's mind to the possibilities attempting to be explored by those systems effectively cuts one off from several useful courses of action. I am not talking about belief, but admitting the possibility of value opens the door to other experiences.
There is the whole concept of the duality of man, but you're not going to hear an explication of it from me.
Then the question becomes, why are you holding on to astrology?
Does something in your experience give you the conviction there is something worthwhile about it?
If so, then the issue is a matter of doubt, or of believing two possibilities, that it is valid and/or not valid. That kind of mental loop is both enervating and useless. More rationalization will not help that, only time and experience, or an act of will, can. Nobody here can help with that.
One can put a lot of time and work into resolving one's doubts about astrology for themselves. In the end it's still possible to come to the conclusion it was all a waste of time (or maybe, of a life). Oh well!
So, how can we help?

 

[athenian200]

My perspective is that astrology feels like a waste of time to many people, for the same reason that philosophy feels like a waste of time to many people. It tells you a lot about why things are the way they are, but doesn't really change what you have to do about those things to move forwards.

Like for instance... I may have Saturn in the 7th house, Venus in 12th house, and tons of other things that accurately predict patterns and problems I will have in my life... but knowing about my fate and the energy I was born with doesn't really change the choices I'm given. Either resign myself to the life outlined by my chart, or try to find some way of adapting and overcoming what seems to be my fate.

Similarly, I can propose the idea that the world doesn't objectively exist and my senses are fooled, but it wouldn't change how I have to live my life. Neither would arguing that free will doesn't exist... I'll still be held accountable for my actions as if free will existed, so it doesn't change anything if I don't believe it does.

Even if the questions aren't a productive use of time, though, they are still interesting to contemplate and have discussions about. My perspective on it is... consult astrology or philosophy if you want an answer to why, but consult someone more rooted in material reality if you want to know more about what exact steps you should take. Like, maybe a psychologist, a doctor, a teacher, an engineer... someone who can lead you down a practical path.

I think my perspective is that you can have both... you have astrology to consult for meaning, and also live your life on a more practical level and try to overcome your fate. Just like you have to try and live the best life you can whether you believe in free will or predestination, you have to try and achieve your goals even with the uncomfortable awareness of having been dealt a bad hand, or in this case a bad chart. It's like... astrology can tell you where you will tend to struggle, but it won't necessarily hold the key to finding meaning in struggle or overcoming a struggle to achieve a goal.

Is it possible it would have been better if you'd never seen your chart, and had just assumed your life was up to you, and didn't know your fate? I don't know, maybe. I've seen arguments like that used as a reason why death prediction should be banned... that a person knowing they're likely to die will make the time they have left more somber, or push them to an early death because they give up hope of surviving, etc. But really if you think about it, that could be applied to almost all astrological predictions... would a person be better off not knowing that they have Saturn in the 7th house and thinking that they as an individual can do better at relationships, rather than just seeing that placement in their chart as fate? Couldn't it inspire them to give up on pursuing relationships early in life thinking it would be pointless anyway, thus making it a self-fulfilling prophecy, just like a death prediction? Is it really any more ethical to make a life prediction than to make a death prediction, or do we just not see the problem with it if the consequences leave the person alive but feeling silly or stupid? It's all kind of weird to think about, really...

 

[conspiracy theorist]

M8, you sound like you're in a rush. And it also sounds like you're experiencing a severe case of FOMO. There are a lot of people who have spent their whole lives studying astrology (two of them on this thread). I have seen where both individuals have stated they don't have all the answers. Astrology doesn't have much economic value by itself so if you're saying that Astrology is getting in the way of developing an economically valuable skill that will put you on par with your rich friends, then yeah it's a waste of time. Astrology is a slow winding road with no predetermined destination -- if you're looking for a "point" to Astrology there is none (as far as I can see).

I will be 29 next month so we are close in age. I have nearly been killed twice (gunshots and stab wounds), don't presently believe in reincarnation or necessarily an afterlife, have wide-ranging interests in more economically lucrative ventures (currently doing 3 certifications and learning programming on the side plus juggling a main job and a side hustle). I say this to draw the broadest of similarities between us (I also have prominent 12th house and Pluto energy in my chart). If I studied something like coding or the markets when I was 15 - 24, would I have been richer? Probably. Did I waste my time studying Astrology? I wouldn't say so. In my opinion, I engaged Astrology like I was doing a liberal arts programme. I read a vast amount of spiritual and philosophical literature, did a lot of thinking and discussing with people more learned and experienced than me, honed my writing skills, met some cool people and made some interesting memories.

Astrology has its place in my life; you have to decide where it should be in yours. If your gut tells you it would be best to focus on something else then do that. No big deal.

 

[Ecliptique]

Hello FVRKAN,

your starting point is to overcome the problems you encounter by tending to want to progress your music. The need to want to be recognized must always make you be the best you can be to please, make you move forward by solving problems, make you keep your personal convictions to want to be appreciated, make you hope in relation to the difficulties that arise. This will then lead you to control what you aspire to in life and to have the results you expect while being appreciated. Continue to fight against yourself (as you wrote). You will eventually get there. Astrology is useful for moving forward in life, and you were right to knock on its door, then to finally come to this forum! Know how to make yourself appreciated, it is your best asset to fulfill yourself.

Among other significant transits in your birth chart, those of Jupiter from 2025 to 2032 inclusive should allow you to have results. Also note that of Pluto in 2038!
You can go back to work...

Ecliptique.

 

[FraterAC]

Is it really any more ethical to make a life prediction

Using timing (or forecasting or predicting) techniques, it is possible to indicate when positive opportunities exist, in addition to the negative influences (that might be withheld to prevent a self-fulfilling prophecy as you say). If someone is in the middle of a difficult period, it is possible in many cases to give reassurances as to its ultimate cessation.
There are always positives in the chart and its timing that can be pointed out and reinforced for the client. This can help orient them toward their best chances for success.

 

[Blister]

This is a very important question for me. That's why I put it into this section of the forum. For those who wants to answer by looking at my birth chart to figure out why I feel like this, here's my birth chart.

The thing I wanna focus and improve in life is music. And to be able to do that I need to work hard. But I have also other interests in different fields such as audio engineering, video graphic designs, photoshop and I wanna even sail to new areas like coding, game developing, utilizing AIs professionally etc. But to be able to have a sufficient knowledge about all these things, I need time. And my time on this earth is limited. And 24 hours is not enough for me to chase all of these things, especially considering I also fight with myself often because I have an inclination to be self-indulgent, self-sabotaging and simply lazy.

The initial attraction of astrology for me starts with the mystery of unanswered questions about life and universe. Then I feel like astrology is superior than any other thing. Because it is understanding the dynamics of life. And it explains "why"s to a deeper level than it looks on the surface. Of course it still doesn't give the answers of where we are coming from and where are we going to but at least, it is possible to reason why some actions, tendencies and many more concepts in life take place. But then I realize... It takes too much time of mine and it's so endless that... To be able to calculate all the functions, and all the factors, is not possible for the mathematics behind everything is tremendously big in a level that we cannot fully comprehend as a human. But yes, at least, we can have ideas, and we can see a navigation of the destiny. And I enjoy figuring out mysteries and pursue more.

But then, I realize, I wanna utilize astrology not only for solving the mysteries but also for my selfish goals. I wanna save myself from my unwanted restrictions, I wanna figure out how to behave according to the existing situations, and I wanna figure out where to relocate based on astrology, so that I can move forward in life easier than I would do without knowing astrology.

But isn't all of these things already included in destiny? We're still in the game. We're trying to solve the game while we're the players and we're supposed to play this game. And then I'm being hard on myself like, "you know what, instead of researching how you should behave and where you should relocate, if you work hard with what you have instead of spending your time for trying to solve the mysteries, you'd be already started to be successful."

I feel like this is a contradiction between my Venus in 10th house and my Mercury and Mars in 12th. I need to improve myself in music more and more, I need to finish audio engineering lessons, I need to release new music frequently etc but when I chase something in astrology, I can't stop until I reach something satisfying for that moment. But what's gonna happen even if I solve enough mystery? Will it not be included in destiny already? Moreover, while researching relocation options, aren't these moments also the result of destiny? Why I wasn't searching few years ago? Why I wasn't giving a single f*ck about astrology before I was 25 years old? These were included too. So my researching on these right now is included too.

While my peers give concerts, advance in musical careers, who especially have mars, sun, jupiter in their 10th house... I feel like I'm imprisoned to astrology with my Mercury and Mars's being in 12th house in Scorpio and with my Scorpio rising which makes me fond of occult and unknowns. And I feel like this is another illusion. And I feel sorry for myself about not having a better destiny in that case. Again as my Saturn square Pluto suggests "Your desires may be a bit unrealistic in light of the resources you have to satisfy them." - and I was always thinking in material ways as the resources I lack are actually having enough money, enough environment to advance in music career but the actual resource I lack seems to have a proper destiny. A proper birth chart. I don't know about the future, maybe I'm being too harsh on myself, maybe all of these obstacles will make me someone stronger but I don't want to be? I would want to take stage, DJing, partying, making money through my music, having elite girlfriends that I share my life and bed, enjoy the life with my music career, instead of being aware of too much things and getting overwhelmed by it.

And the time that I spent/that I will spend on astrology will never come back. At what cost I'm doing this? To just know how I would be happy, to just know where I would be happy... What should have been was to be born in unproblematic family in unproblematic country without traumas and disorders and with enough positive aspects, like Martin Garrix for example, who was born in Netherlands, who were sent to a music production school when he was a teenager and who made the song "Animals" when he was 17 years old and who exceeded +1 billion views with that on YouTube and who created an awesome career from the beginning and his place is so good that, once in two years, he becomes number 1 of DJ mag top 100 list. This is just an example. So these planets we inspect are being abundantly generous to some but being so harsh to some.

Today I was on a zoom meeting with someone, he and I worked together for a year, he's a rich man and he had hired me to produce his tracks that he's gonna sing over. And we had a session about astrology. I read his chart, and I read mine... He has luck. Too many aspects that shows he'll never lack resources in life, that he'll be wealthy, that he'll be leader in anything he does etc. The downside of his chart seemed so small compared to mine. I was given getting stabbed in a street fight, getting imprisoned injustly, he was given turning his ideas immediately to cash, a strength that he'd feel self-reliant all the time. And the examples may be increased.

So I'm like, why to learn astrology? To see in the end that I'm a piece of sh*t and unsaveable? What will change my squares? What will change my pessimistic look to the world while I have this much squares to make me think so?

I'm still pathetically hopeful and trying to find the answers about myself and about the place where I should live, while others already were born with having these and already hitting the music charts with the music they make instead of birth charts as I do.

Does Jupiter rule your 2nd? What we value is what we strive to obtain.

I once saw a funny cartoon in Mountain Astrologer magazine...

A perplexed centaur Sag standing at a fork in a road, looking at two signs pointing two different directions:
One sign read Spiritual Enlightenment
The other sign read Bob's Party.

 

[wan]

Astrology to me is not a waste of time. It is how I kill time.

 

[Lin]

FVRKAN:
Have you heard the saying, "Jack of all trades, Master of none?" Your initial post shows that you have a LOT of various desires and too many to use ALL your free time doing.

You seem to understand what astrology is...and what it can and can't go for you.....but I don't know what your "end goal" is with astrology.
Astrology is more of a "calling" than a hobby or pursuit. It requires not only studying....not only using your own charts and your own life, but delving into the lives of others....being curious and interested in the lives of other people....especially the people you KNOW so that you can follow THEIR lives and the way the planets and transits affect THEM thru time as well as your own.

AS I have said innumerable times on these forums, a surgeon doesn't learn his art and by operating on only one patient.
It takes a LOT of VARIATION to get a full picture of how the planets work ....not only in your own life, but in the lives of others.

You have so many interests and almost unlimited goals attached to those interests, it does seem that you don't really have time for the deep study and research astrology requires.

Then there are your preconceived ideas....your very fixed ideas....all types of study of philosophy, astrology, human nature (psychology), etc, requires an OPEN MIND. I don't see much openness in your mind. I think your impulses of the "moment" are a detriment to "DEEP UNDERSTANDING" of any of these subjects.

You need a PRIORITY LIST. And you have to stick to it. If you relegate astrology to a couple of hours of reading and study and research a week, then that is what you will GET out of it. Trust me. I have studied astrology and been a professional astrologer for many decades...and tho I have also had MANY other interests, ....children, gardening, family, friends, photography, and reading of subjects other than astrology, my MAIN goal has always been "human nature" thru the study of astrology.

So in a way....for you....at least at THIS Momen in time....astrology just might be a waste of ttime...and I say this because you are not getting joy or satisfaction from it....and you don't know enough to answer the big questions in your life. You may not even know WHAT THE BIG AND MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS ARE RIGHT NOW. The important part of that last sentence is "RIGHT NOW."
When you are "supposed to" dig more deeply into astrology, it will just happen. It will happen ...."organically" as they say.

You don't have to give itr up....maybe you need a break from it until you can ascertain how much you miss studying it.

I will look further at your chart...transits, progressions....and see if I can give you more useful insight.

LIN

 

[MoonBucket]

So I'm like, why to learn astrology? To see in the end that I'm a piece of sh*t and unsaveable? What will change my squares? What will change my pessimistic look to the world while I have this much squares to make me think so?

I'm still pathetically hopeful and trying to find the answers about myself and about the place where I should live, while others already were born with having these and already hitting the music charts with the music they make instead of birth charts as I do.

Dear FVRKAN: First, I'm glad you are still hopeful. That's probably the most important and fundamental thing in any human life. Maybe it's time to take a break from astrology and turn a blind eye to things that diminish your hope, at least for a while. Perhaps even consider cultivating a little more hope -- even a foolish hope -- despite any contrary indications.

Disclaimer: I'm generally not a predictive astrologer. I think astrology can be a tool of self-exploration, kind of like a random questionnaire where one might consider: "is that really true of me, and how so?" Also, for artists in general (similar to Tarot), I think astrology can be beneficial in an impersonal way just for the "Art of Combinations" aspect of considering different areas of life, flavors of energy in play, and filters or modes of expression for those.

Recently I have wanted to express this thought, and this seems like a good thread for it:
I think it's important not to mold the person to the chart.
(similar to not forcing the data to fit the hypothesis)

Astrology is an empirical art and/or science that results in general surmises about apparent correspondences; however, you are a unique spirit with as much agency as you have -- own that and use it wisely (at least when you feel up to it).
Please don't imprison yourself in a mental cage of your own making, based on any external tradition.

I personally sympathize with having a lot of different interests, and not enough time to cultivate all of them.

Similar to Lin's post: if music is your priority, then make it your priority.

Yes, choosing one area of focus takes time away from cultivating other areas.

But rest assured that others around the world have chosen to focus and excel in their specific areas, with results that can be appreciated by and maybe even be beneficial to others.

"Do what others won't so that you can do what others cannot."

Steven Wright: "You can't have everything -- where would you keep it?"

Spend the time, do the work, play the first note every single day. Don't expect to be perfect at all times. A lot of cultivation of skills happens behind the scenes. Make some scraps. Make lots of them. Keep them in your backstage workshop and occasionally select and show the best to the public -- that's how it's done.

 

[MoonBucket]

I think you’re just making some ways to make yourself believe into this so that you can hold on a thought that would make you feel immortal, and probably you accepted this philosophy later in your life as you get closer to the death. Your beautiful flesh will be eaten by worms, or decay by itself or will be ashes. And you don’t wanna accept this. You wanna claim more. Because it doesn’t feel fair. Once you were attracting plenty amount of men. You’re losing your power day by day. Your skin doesn’t feel yours. You still expect to see that young face you used to see when you look at the mirror but something is wrong. Your time is coming to an end. You’re dying. You don’t wanna just disappear. You’d even prefer to be in hell rather than being something non-existing. You can understand that there’s no such a thing by just looking at the fact in this life that is “destroying always easier than making”. That’s the only thing that the world loses the concept of “duality of life”, where it loses its 50/50 balance. You don’t have any idea how much I feel sorry for you just because you said you’re 73. And I’m also very close to that age as someone 30. I’m aware of that. I bet you’re still somewhat beautiful in some ways and even might be considered as attractive even at that age especially compared to your peers. Such a vivid soul you have. Yeah maybe I’m gonna die before you, nobody knows, but I don’t believe the things you talk about. You’re not the only one who saw that near death experience light or who experienced some supernatural stuff. But this doesn’t prove anything. Maybe you’re right, maybe wrong. I don’t care about the people who could possibly lived my previous life or will live my next life. I wanna reach that next life here, with this char, with Furkan. If I ever lose my total hope, I’ll exit this server. Right now I’m just watching a boring movie just because I wonder if something would happen.

Sorry if ever hurt your feelings. Know that I didn’t mean it. You’re precious.

What key is this in?

 

[Chrysalis]

The majority of people turn to Astrology when they are going through a difficult time in their lives in the hope of learning when things will improve and being offered some hope or even simple answers as to why things are going wrong.

This could include a job loss, a marital breakdown, a property loss, death, a mental breakdown, despair, or simply feeling completely adrift in life with no direction.

My chart is very Mercurial (currently sat at my pc with 21 tabs open lol). I have numerous interests, but not enough time to pursue and master them all. I've realized ive had to stick to one, which happened to be astrology. And I've persisted with astrology because I want to be someone who can give others hope and answers. Sometimes you just have to prioritise.

 

[Bjorkstrand]

u got merc rising. that's why all the words.