Quite a transformational period in your life, Leomoon.
The attic is traditionally where we store old stuff, that we aren't ready to throw away but we are still attached to.
Very symbolic.
I've studied & written Kindle books on dreams, and used puns my whole life on them, so I decided early on, the attic is the higher consciousness of the human being, the basement being the sub-conscious and the 1st floor the waking everyday conscious life. We often have the attic dream over the years so I carefully try & learn what I can from them and pay attention.
When we moved across the country from the east coast (where there was the Atlantic Ocean) to the desert community about 25 yrs or more ago now, I stored some of the children's old toys hoping for grandchildren one day in the only attic we had here in the 1st house we bought.
In no time it turned to dry rot
Certainly was a symbol of things to come. We have no grandchildren in our lives that we see, although we did when they were very little
But yes, its been an interesting enough life, and I hope I have grown through the ups and downs of it all. Lots of errors made, lots of understanding came through the errors made, lots of regrets along with them, but that is how humans learn. Sometimes we cannot go back and change things, and if we could we would. The "key" is for others to forgive, but it's their karma to meet as I hold no hard feelings towards anyone. Mine is to "clean up my house" (in more ways than one, speaking of the inner house too) with the time I have left, and I try to do this with awareness. I feel badly for my kids (now in their 50s) who cling to past memories and judge others for life based on ones they decided they don't like. We carry that with us to the next world. That's sad to know. Forgive and Forget to how I was taught as a child.
I try & remind my husband too about this often as we finish up the life we built together since he suffers too.
I tell him although HE gets along FAR better with our 2 remaining daughters, (so I let him do the talking to the one in Greece who still speaks to us and takes our money when its offered
- his personality is very much like hers. I think Astrology is utterly fascinating really when you think of it. Our children (says Kahlil Gibran the poet) are NOT our children, but the poet tells us, the Universe yearning (see link)
and so true!
YET, something happens at conception to give you just the right opportunities all around for both (the soul coming in and the parent ) to grow and evolve.
In the case of the one in Greece, she may have been born the same Sun Sign as me, but she is a Scorpio Rising, same as him and that truly plays a HUGE role in her personality, seems to overpower her. Same with my eldest who is estranged. A Cancer Sun (opposes my Capricorn Sun) who never cared for me from the time she was 13 or earlier. Probably because she was the eldest and expected more out of her with her 2 smaller sisters, but really it's past life connections. I also always said, she was ME but "inside out".
Her chart has Scorpio on the MC which I still haven't figured out entirely, but I know the MC is very important during conception.
Then her daughter, a sweet girl, we were close when she was young, but her mother soured her on me now fully.All 8th house stuff. A full 8th house as is her mom's karma there too.
I always tried to understand at least astrologically, but to tell the truth it escapes me. The 8th and Lilith with the MC underpinnings there.
At least we can cross over now knowing we've done everything possible to make things right. You cannot force someone else to be true to themselves. Impossible.
Kahlil Gibran: Lebanese-American Poet who wrote the Prophet
On Children:
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.