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[MoonBucket]

The forum died for hours.

Sorry about that. I went out to check the sky and tripped over the Tortoise of the Baskervilles.

 

[MoonBucket]

Of course, but I would like them to die like animals in painful and shameful circumstances, before they lived to be 25 years old and without leaving their heirs behind. These scoundrels caused huge damage to my childish psyche for many years, they literally made my life unbearable.

This is not to make light of your suffering, or to smooth it over with some platitude like, "we all have our internal struggles."

But since you write so well in general, have you considered writing horror/thriller/revenge stories for Kindle or other venues? I imagine (could be wrong) that this might help you psychologically if not financially.

 

[MoonBucket]

I was thinking about the fact that the life of a nun could suit me. It's not that I strive for some religious or spiritual ideals; I like loneliness, but the thought of living together with 300 women scares me.

Then that is probably not the right way for you, even though I don't know which tradition you follow or which holy order you have in mind, but I think some of them have a path for solitaries.

Could you have a conversation with an abbess or similar about this topic? (I was raised Catholic until I left the church at about age 16, and I don't know what the Orthodox equivalent would be, if that would be relevant.)

Throughout my life, I felt pressure and ridiculed because of my unsociality. I don't want to stand out among people, and this is probably due to the influence of ketu in the first house and other astrological aspects.

You might just be a natural introvert -- in my case, I do fine with small numbers of other people, and am comfortable being around other people if I don't have to interact with them, but feel completely out of my element at parties and other large gatherings (where I shut down into elevator manners), which to me seem to lack any pretext other than (ultimately, for lack of a valid pretext) an opportunity for people to pry into each other's business.

And you might also be an outsider-observer -- I think it was Natasha in "War and Peace" who expressed that kind of person.

I realized that it would be nice to accept my nature, because attempts to change myself only led to misfortune.

In a Christian context, one approach regarding problems one cannot solve oneself would be to invite and allow help from Heaven. The invitation (as I understand it) would be necessary because of the respect for one's free will.

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Hoping this helps. Of course my usual kind of post would have been something like: "If you do become a nun, may Heaven keep you far away from elementary school classrooms until you get your own problems sorted out."

 

[MoonBucket]

I had an enemy, a woman, moreover, of the same nationality, unfortunately, with age, who felt a strong hatred for me. This hatred seemed to come from the depths of her soul. I'm sure if she had the chance, she would have killed me. In some ways, she looked mentally unstable and may have had tendencies towards lesbian relationships. I don't know what her problem really was, but she used force against me. I tried to somehow establish a relationship with her by pretending to be a friend, but it didn't work. Naturally, I have a deep hatred for her and, fortunately, I don't see her anymore. At the same time, I am afraid to realize that according to one theory, our brothers and sisters in past lives could have been our enemies, and now we must try to find love for them. This prospect scares me very much.

Sorry for the off-topic, but from your way of writing I imagine you might be a fan of Dostoevsky (as am I).

If you can't find love, then try for understanding. If you can't find understanding, then try for acceptance.

Please see above re: writing stories and asking for help from Heaven.

 

[MoonBucket]

Which makes you 10 hours late with your update.
David, I expect better.

Still a little better than our planetary asteroid alert system not announcing that a 27-inch asteroid would enter our atmosphere until a scanty 7 or 8 hours before the projected entrance earlier today.

Looking forward to some cool photos from Siberia, though (that's where the asteroid would have flamed out, at nighttime there).

On a side note, I hope all our satellites currently in orbit were fashioned to be completely atmospherically combustible, for whenever it is they fall.

 

[MoonBucket]

Oh, heck -- I've killed the forum again.

Sorry about that!

 

[conspiracy theorist]

You just have excellent timing

 

[ShannaUK]

Today the Amazon's driver didn't knock on the door, dropped the damaged parcel at my doorstep and walked away. It's the law of series

 

[Chrysalis]

This new forum layout is going to take some getting used to. I'm not too keen on it so far.
When you click on a thread/post its
to
the
left.
The font size is smaller.
And I believe the shade of blue is slightly deeper.
And obviously, there are more advertisements. Perhaps this is so that we might become a "supporting member".

I just think it was fine as it was and didn't even need changing.

 

[Glory]

I still can't get rid of the memories of the scene from the movie "Hannibal", when the main character cuts off the brain of his victim and treats him to this delicacy. This very cruel and disgusting episode left a deep mark on my psyche.

 

[david starling]

I still can't get rid of the memories of the scene from the movie "Hannibal", when the main character cuts off the brain of his victim and treats him to this delicacy. This very cruel and disgusting episode left a deep mark on my psyche.

The actor's girlfriend in real life couldn't stay with him anymore because of. that scene.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

I don’t mind the new layout. I also think it’s pretty cool that pwadm doesn’t even use the forum anymore, yet he’s still providing a place for us to hang and providing updates for it.

It’s a bit like being invited to someone’s mansion and they don’t appear.

 

[david starling]

Tropical Sol square .

It's ruining Sol's transit for me, personally, which is usually one of my favorites.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Tropical Sol square .

It's ruining Sol's transit for me, personally, which is usually one of my favorites.

I would have preferred to use a ‘hug’ emoji for you but the sad one had to do. Hopefully the sun is able to shine fully for you soon.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Wow, if you upgrade to a membership, you can change your username. I don’t want to change mine, but I know other people have in the past.

 

[ShannaUK]

Horror movies are terrible for the mind and it opens the gate to all kind of demons entering your life, you should never watch these craps

 

[conspiracy theorist]

This new forum layout is going to take some getting used to. I'm not too keen on it so far.
When you click on a thread/post its
to
the
left.
The font size is smaller.
And I believe the shade of blue is slightly deeper.
And obviously, there are more advertisements. Perhaps this is so that we might become a "supporting member".

I just think it was fine as it was and didn't even need changing.

I agree with your observation that the forum seems to be attempting to generate more revenue. They moved the donating member prompt to the top of the forum home page, and at the bottom of the page there is an option to "advertise with us". The new leadership has a different direction they want to take and they certainly are acting on it.

 

[david starling]

I agree with your observation that the forum seems to be attempting to generate more revenue. They moved the donating member prompt to the top of the forum home page, and at the bottom of the page there is an option to "advertise with us". The new leadership has a different direction they want to take and they certainly are acting on it.

I just paid for the year with a credit card. Now what? The only option seemed to be to use PayPal, so I hope that nothing goes wrong!

 

[Chrysalis]

I agree with your observation that the forum seems to be attempting to generate more revenue. They moved the donating member prompt to the top of the forum home page, and at the bottom of the page there is an option to "advertise with us". The new leadership has a different direction they want to take and they certainly are acting on it.

It's evident that the 'new leadership' direction is one of financial gain.
Because of the numerous advertisements, the entire layout has become a mess. It just doesn't feel the same. The solution to this advertisement issue is to become a "supporting member," a decision I would prefer to make independently rather than under duress.

My only hope is that this new layout was done during Mercury Rx, so fingers crossed that they change it back to the way it was.

 

[passiflora]

Sorry for the off-topic, but from your way of writing I imagine you might be a fan of Dostoevsky (as am I).

If you can't find love, then try for understanding. If you can't find understanding, then try for acceptance.

Please see above re: writing stories and asking for help from Heaven.

Isn't it uncanny! I already asked though and she has not read Notes from Underground.